I’m home again due to the weather. This was going to be the storm of all storms. Almost everything shut down for the day. Decisions were made yesterday. Stay off the streets! No buses, no city services, no school! So I cancelled all activities at the Lighthouse today only to wake up and see no snow! What? What happened? The wind is howling, but all I see falling is a few flakes. The snow banks aren’t rising, but disappointment that I cancelled everything is.
It reminded me that sometimes we try and do the right thing, or we have good intentions, but it leads to disappointment and regret. I find it to be true sometimes when I’m trying to help someone. My intentions are good, but they don’t want or even need my help. Sometimes I have to go back and question my own motives. What makes me think I know what’s best for them? Am I trying to play God? Might I even be depriving them of the opportunity for true growth in needing to decide and act on their own?
On a deeper level, even in my own struggles with sin and my fallen state as a human being I have the intention of doing good, getting better or changing; but for some reason I can’t. Not on my own. Paul writes about this in Romans 7:19, “I want to do what is good, but I don’t. I don’t want to do what is wrong, but I do it anyway.” NLT. I remember this well in my struggle with addiction. This may surprise you, but I never intended to make a mess of my life. I wanted to be a person of integrity. I wanted to make good decisions and make things right. Sometime we even have the intention of doing the next right thing, we may even try, but the result is disappointment once again. That’s when guilt begins to become shame and we find ourselves even in a bigger storm than what we expected. Know what I mean?
In Romans 7 Paul finally asks, “Who will free me from this life that is dominated by sin and death? Thank God! The answer is in Jesus Christ our Lord.” Parts of verses 24-25 NLT. I’ve learned I will make bad decisions, sometimes intentionally and sometimes unintentionally. So will you. But by the grace of God I know that I am forgiven and loved unconditionally. And free! Free to live in confidence and hope. In Jesus you are too! If you don’t know Him in this way, stop right now and ask Him to give you forgiveness, unconditional love, confidence and hope. He will. I promise. Thank you, Jesus!
Should we have cancelled stuff today? You make the best decision you can and you move on. Frankly, I remember the times this week when I prayed that God would not bring us more snow or precipitation. We don’t need it right now. Maybe today is God’s way of slowing us down enough to hear Him answer our prayers. Hmmmmm. I’m listening!